She's Still Here

As I lay down and write this, heading towards a new year
I know I can't see her
But I know she's still here
With her family....
I still hear her screaming at her siblings
and getting mad with her mother for not letting her do things
Going over to Grandma's, playing with her cousin's
She used to say she was bored on the outside
But deep inside, she wasn't
When she graduated from college, it wasn't just for herself
It was for her kin folk
And proved that if she can set examples
Then thou shall ride tail coat
And if she had a problem with either one of you
She was good for holding a grudge
But eventually, the grudge, budged
But never, ever her love
She spoke highly of all her family
Year after year
I know you can't see her
But I know she's still here
With her homeboy's....
I see her giving pounds like she's cool
Calling every guy Son like she was born a dude
She was the girl you either loved or just really disliked her
But either way you respected her because you knew no one was like her
She was the girl that was a woman with really girlie ways
Her crazy ways, the way she waved
Her Braids.......remember those days?
Her smile, her personality
Her harsh description of reality
To Jose's harsh casualty
She still smiled throughout his tragedy
She missed most of ya'll when she didn't speak to you
And couldn't wait to see her homeboy's in the next school year
I know you can't see her
But I know she's still here
And her homegirl's.....
Forget it
She loved ya'll alot
She used to act like she did, but Tasha never forgot
How ya'll used to hang out, trade stories and what not
And let's not
Forget how she always wanted to call shots
She spoke up for herself whether you liked it or not
She stayed with an attitude like she had things on lock
Her generous heart
She gave even when she didn't have it
And even though she didn't say so
She loved ya'll more than you will ever know
Whether she knew ya'll forever or close to a year
I know you can't see her
But I know she's still here
To me.....
I can still hear that laugh I found real crazy
She used to always brag about being grown
But used to act like a baby
But that's my lady
If we were any closer, we'd be the same person
Just in different versions
But Natasha and I were real close
Who would have ever thought that the way we used to argue
Would be one of the things I miss the most?
That's my best friend
Through thick and thin
Through hell and high water
If she pointed, I fought em'
And Tasha really wanted a daughter
She meant more to me than air to breathe
And because she made it important
I left Virginia State with nothing
And stand before you with a College Degree
But I'd give it all back just to have her pull on my ear
I know I can't see her
But I know she's still here
She always spoke about her God Sisters, God Mothers, Her Pastor and God Brothers
And used to fall asleep on Sunday's sitting right in Church
But as Natasha's unfortunate departure
She was getting more and more familiar with God's words
And finally realized that life would be worth living if she left it in God's hands
So just know that God and Natasha helped me lay down and write this
As we are all heading towards a new year
And even though we can't see her loud behind
We should know that Natasha Donna Bartlett is still right here
Rest In Peace Natasha....
By: Brian Langston
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